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/**
* file: karbytes_16_february_2024.txt
* type: plain-text
* date: 16_FEBRUARY_2024
* author: karbytes
* license: PUBLIC_DOMAIN
*/
At the time this (plain-text) note is being written, I am sitting in one of my favorite local coffee shops using the shop Wi-Fi (instead of my (metered) Internet connection which my Android phone provides) to carefully re-download every zip file which I plan to burn to the two M_DISCs whose contents are enumerated on the web page named mdisc_karbytes_23_february_2024 of the website named Karbytes For Life Blog dot WordPress dot Com. This is to ensure that those zip files are the most up to date versions of themselves possible.
Yesterday I spent the entire afternoon and evening working on organizing and cataloging all of the physical media I have generated and plan to generate by 11:59PM Pacific Standard Time on 23_FEBRUARY_2024 which constitutes the entire collection of karbytes-created source code and media files which comprise the public karbytes-created website named Karlina Object dot WordPress dot Com and the public karbytes-created website named Karbytes For Life Blog dot WordPress dot Com (at the "point" in time referred to as 11:59PM Pacific Standard Time on 23_FEBRUARY_2024). The results of that cataloging is the web page named karbytes_physical_inventory_for_23february2024 of the website named Karbytes For Life Blog dot WordPress dot Com (and that web page is now featured on the home page of that website in place of the web page named KARLINA_OBJECT_winter_2023_starter_pack_physical_artifacts_inventory).
(I tend to use my phone's mobile Internet connection for most of my Internet-dependent tasks (which are not particularly "data intensive" due to the fact that I am billed approximately $20 per every 3 gigabytes of mobile data I use via my phone/Internet service provider (which is AT&T)). I almost never use the Wi-Fi at either one of my parents' houses due to the fact that their Wi-Fi tends to be unreliable and slow (especially at my dad's house)).
(Finally, because I have been asked if I need homeless assistance due to wearing my big camping backpack almost everywhere I go (even while not camping), I decided it might be less embarassing and less physically cumbersome for me to leave the big backpack at home and take a smaller backpack when I am just doing non-camping tasks. That way, I look less like a prospective thief and loiterer (which makes other people feel uncomfortable, understandably, because I too feel a bit uneasy when I see human beings "living" on the streets instead of leading more productive and fulfilling lives (though I am not one to tell people what to do unless it is an emergency or part of some contract I have agreed to fulfill))).
* * *
To clarify what I said in earlier (and in the previous section of this note), I meant to say "I am not one to tell people other than myself what to do" when I said "I am not one to tell people what to do".
Also, because I think it might be inconvenient for me to "signal" to other people that I do not have what I need to not return home at the end of the day if I only bring a small backpack with me (instead of the big backpack which has everything I need to be comfortable and productive outside of my home and while traveling out of town such as by train, airplane, and whatever modalities of transport I employ), I think that I might opt to keep using my big backpack almost daily (despite the fact that doing so might make other people think that I am homeless or being "chidlish" in some way). I am not going to (voluntarily) disadvantage myself just to avoid being ridiculed or harassed by other people (and today, rather than get harassed or ridiculed, some lady kindly gave me approximately $20 in cash because she thought I looked like I was working on something important and could also use the extra cash because I did not appear to have a stable home situation. That was the second time in one week that some stranger has kindly offered me money or to buy me a slice of pizza. Usually I decline offers unless it is stricly cash (though I am always a bit embarassed to be in such a predicament and I admittedly am a bit reluctant be in positions in which I feel "indebted to" some person other than an employer or government agency).
(As silly as this might sound, while sitting at a table in public, I think I look slightly more aesthetically pleasing if I put my backpack in the chair on the opposite end of the table from me as though the backpack and I are on a romantic date. My high school cross country coach once commented on a picture which I shared on social media back in the year 2016 when I got my second job as a bakery associate and was celebrating the occasion by sitting at a restaurant in Berkeley having vegan chili and cornbread with my backpack sitting in the chair opposite from me as though the backpack and I were on a two-person date like what I am currently doing with my new backpack at this cafe in the year 2024: "What a lucky backpack").
(Also, though I try to keep my complaints to a minimum, I do seem to get verbally harassed at least once per day by other people who seem to be opposed to me living my own life as I choose to rather than spending most of my time indoors and not intentionally making what I do known to the public. Even more troubling is the fact that I frequently seem to encounter instances of other people tampering with my bicycle when I leave it locked to a bike rack unattended. I think some person vindictively loosened some of the screws which keep the handlebars secure to the bike frame so that my ride feels shaky at best and is literally an accident waiting to happen at worst. If I seem to make damning commentary about entire groups of people based off of negative stereotypes about those groups, it is almost always because members of that group have bullied me multiple times in the ways I described and not limited to those ways (especially in ways which I think are intentionally endangering to my physical safety (which is what I consider to be covert or small-scale terrorism)))..
What I think is going on is that "those people" are jealous of me appearing to have more free time than them, more money than them, better early life circumstances than them, and otherwise appearing to have a "better" standard of living than what "those people" seem to have. I would implore those people to invest their energy in bettering their circumstances and in personal development endeavors instead of in trying to sabotage other people from doing that. As a corollary to the previous sentence, I do not intend to voluntarily allocate my personal resources towards appeasing such people because I think that such people are wasteful, rude, violence-prone, anti-intellectual, oppressive towards women and gender-nonconforming persons (or anyone who does not conform rigidly to their culture), and indifferent to environmental sustainability and non-human animal welfare issues. In other words, I consider such people to be too consistently small-minded, beligerent, and tyrannical to be worthy of my voluntary sacrifices (even if that means that such people end up going extinct due to a lack of breeding or because of "genocidal" violence).
* * *
I "apologize" if what I said in the previous section of this note caused anyone to suffer or undergo damages (though I framed the word "apologize" in quotations because I rarely feel the need to apologize because I rarely transgress against my own sense of ethics (which I suppose is also an issue of contention amidst those who feel "disadvantaged" compared to me because, apparently, me being able to decide what my own ethical convictions are and to actually live by those convictions is an elitist "luxury" most humans cannot afford or are prevented by their authorities from affording)).
I am not really "apologizing" for anyone's benefit other than my own. I apparently only care about what is in my scope of concern to care about and am decidedly oblivious to everything else (though I do endeavor to expand my scope of interest and empathy to be as large as the whole of reality).
* * *
Today I picked up one of the two sets of three M_DISCs which I ordered within the past two weeks from Amazon dot Com from the locker named Taube near the north-facing entrance to the Lucky's grocery store in Castro Valley (and the other set of three M_DISCs is scheduled to be dropped off at that same locker within the next two weeks).
I am now "at home" in the garage at my dad's house blasting the best black metal album I currently have downloaded on my laptop so that the space feels as close to what I consider to be my idealized notion of home as possible. I was thrilled to find that there was a screw driver whose bit was perfectly sized and shaped to tighten the screws of my bike handles. Now the bike is, more or less, back to normal (but there is some damage on the metal cap thing on the right hand brakes from putting a lot of strain on that break in particular (especially while going down hills)).
While walking up the hill home (because, for whatever reason, I never seem to own bikes which have gears which enable me to go uphill for long distances or up steep inclines or else I am not making enough physical effort to do so (but I suspect it mostly has to do with the fact that I have only ever really owned what are considered to be "cheap" bikes (and a "cheap" bike is regarded as less than one thousand dollars)) I got into some "micro drama" with some locals (which was embarassing for me but what I think was good for advancing the plot of this blog): some residents pulled up to me in their van and asked me if I needed help (and I have gotten that question asked a lot to me the past month while walking my bike along the road with my backpack on by people in their cars). Rather than cheesily smile (in an attempt to be exude gratefulness and friendliness) like I usually have (and wish I did and prefer to do for now on), I got a bit self righteous and pointed to the man, woman, and child walking in lockstep on the other side of the street and said to the people asking me help, "Why don't you ask them if they need help?" rhetorically. Comically, they started asking those people if they needed help and then told me to calm down (insinuating that I was overreacting to what was intended by them to be taken as an act of altruism). Then I heard some frat bro who lives in one of the houses nearby cheer loudly with a single, "Woo!" I feel the same way. I feel like making loud and ecstatic cheers because I am very happy to be alive doing my projects with more immersiveness than ever before.
I noticed a few errors earlier in my blog which I corrected. I will double check one last time to make sure the karbytes files are ready to be burned to the M_DISCs named karbytes_23february2024_core and karbytes_23february2024_journal.
(By the way, that lovely album I am listening to is "Nord" by "Setherial". From what I have read about that album online, I think that the album and that genre of music in general (i.e. black metal) is about the void of life (as depicted by references to Scandanavian forests in the "dead" of winter in which the days are as short as three hours and temperatures are extremely cold) and about death and the macabre "shadow" aspects of nature rather than about politics and contemporary issues (which means that such a genre of music is considered to be "escapist" and fantasy-based instead of pertaining to more "mature" and "wordly" subject matter like what is depicted by mainstream music (and tensions in romantic or lust-driven relationships seems to be a center piece in most of the music I hear playing on the public radio and in shopping centers (because the capitalist "machine" needs more fresh, naive, programmable, and able-bodied human grist for the mill to stay running and heterosexual intercourse (especially with insufficient contraceptive methods and while under the influence of alcohol and too little time off from mind-numbing, soul-crushing jobs which robots could probably do more effectively and efficiently to avoid such a "trap"))). The album art for that album is also included in the GitHub repository which contains this plain-text note and that image is available at the following web page address):
https://raw.githubusercontent.com/karlinarayberinger/KARLINA_OBJECT_extension_pack_8/main/nord_setherial_album_art_obtained_by_karbytes_on_16february2024.jpg
Finally, I also ordered a paperback version of the book named "LSD and the Mind of the Universe: Diamonds from Heaven" by Christopher Bache which I was inspired to purchase after watching a few videos in which he the author was giving a lecture or else being interviewed (and the ideas he presented really resonated with me on a deep philosophical and viceral level in that my own psychonautic experiences seem to be aligned with what his were (especially the idea that consciousness does not die)). More information about that book is available at the following web page address:
https://raw.githubusercontent.com/karlinarayberinger/KARLINA_OBJECT_extension_pack_8/main/lsd_and_the_mind_of_the_universe_diamonds_from_heaven_by_chistopher_bache_paperback_copy_purchased_by_karbytes_on_16february2024.png